Last Night

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     I must have unpacked and repacked about eight times in the past two days.  Today I tried to weigh my suitcase on a fairly unreliable, old scale.  It claimed my suitcase weighed about sixty-seven pounds.  The weight limit is fifty.  So I took out a few things (majority liquids) and weighed in again.  This time it was sixty-three pounds.  Better but not good enough.  Moved two pairs of shoes to my carry-on which now weighs about twenty-five pounds on its own.  Reweighed the bag.  I did this about four more times, taking out less and less.  I'm pretty much at the point where there is nothing extra left, everything I have packed I need.  So if it is over fifty pounds, I will just have to pay $60 fee.
     I lost my USB cord to my digital camera, which is how it is charged and how you get the pictures on to your computer.  I went to Staples, Best Buy, KMart, Walmart and finally Radio Shack before I found one that fit my camera.  The Best Buy guy wanted me to buy a travel charger for just the battery and a USB thumb drive for the memory card, which could have been a good alternative, but I decided to keep searching and I'm glad I did!
     I got to spend the past two days with my family, running errands and taking a test run to the airport.  I hung out with my best friend for a few hours tonight, which was nice.  I spoke to Brianne for a bit while I was at my friend's house and we figured out where we're going to meet in the airport.  And then...it all got very real.  All of a sudden, it got extremely real.  Up until now, it was that distant point in the future.  So now I'm home, trying to convince myself I'm tired.  However, I'm about ninety percent sure I am going to be spending the night unable to sleep.  It's more excitement than nerves, but I will feel better once we're in Barcelona and I'm settled into my room.
     Saying goodbye to everyone, it's strange.  I know I'm coming back and they know it too.  It doesn't stop anyone from getting teary-eyed as they wave goodbye or giving me an extra squeeze before they let go.  My last night in my own bed for a month...is very weird to think about.

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